After finishing Vishnu Sahasranamam Sadhana at Sri Badrika Ashram, I am at Chandigarh for 2 days to live with my birth family.

I got inspiration to write this post while reading Gurudeva’s blog this morning when my birth sister, followed by my biological mother, yelled at my lazy-acting nephew from the kitchen.

I could not focus on what I was reading for almost 5 minutes, followed by a pang of anxiety. And then I thought let’s write about it.

First, because this clearly defines a large chunk of my sadhana in this life, dealing with ignorant family members, and I personally have a strong sensitivity to things, especially home spaces.

Second, I know how common this is. Though the level of sensitivity I have might not be that common.

Immediately after the yelling disoriented me, I thought about the food that was being prepared while they were at it.

This is after years of being with me, under my guidance and support.

Old habits die hard.

How common is this in today’s households ?

It impacts all of our wellbeing, of course, but more so for a self-realized being, since they become oversensitive and live in oneness. But then I trust the divine that it must have had good reason for making me go through this.

Mind you, I realized the divine within, merged with it in the middle of this all as my self-realization happened not in a forest or any secluded spot, but in a room of a bustling city home in Amritsar, my childhood home.